That awkward moment when you really want to talk to someone, but don't know how to continue the conversation.

Seriously, I'm feeling so moody now. And it's early in the morning now with a timing of 9:17am and im blogging here. I realise, people that you thought would never leave and will always be by your side, leaves. 

And you got really jealous that other people are able to talk to them while you can't when you once was the one that could talk to them all day long. why? I got so troubled.

 Would time rewind? Or maybe it's time for me to go on? 

you know, I always thought I'm too of a person that doesn't care much and gives in easily. Maybe thats why it leds to me feeling sorry when I'm not the one at wrong? 
Or maybe am i too selfish to think that I'm in wrong? I have no idea. 
But i really want to say to you " Hey, Let's just get back to friends can? I miss you. " . Shitty, You know i don't have the courage to say out.