When you're gone, why didn't you bring the memories back too?

 Today went orchard with family. walked around, Not much people today eh. :O Thought alot people. then went city plaza. I got one tie-top and pants. :) I swear its super naish. end of my post. I'm super not in the mood to post anything that happened except the mood i'm right now. Bear with me okay?

I'm sosososo sad. I wanted to cry so much today. You really dunno how much i tries to hold back my tears. when their falling, I just close my eyes. Pretending I'm just resting. When you want to step out of my life, why didnt you bring back the memories? Leaving all of them to me just makes me feel like dying. I miss how things are used to be
. We use to laugh and chat everything on phones, until you dosent even want to let me hear your voice and let someone else apologise for you.
 Do you fucking know how much I wish to hear your voice and the way you joke to me now? Why did you leave when I'm at the most sad moments of my life? How can you do this to me? I've always wanted to see you in my future, and what hurts the most is when you say i didnt have to fight for a slot in your heart, its already bigger than a parking lot.
Why is life so curel?.. why it is so unfair? Do you took me for granted or i mistaken you? Its only been 1 week plus, I feel like years since we're together.. Please, if you would ever come back, I wouldnt let you go anymoree. I'm always giving you hints but you never asked. are you really the right guy for me? I just want to know if you're feeling the same way or are you just playing with me? Get wat you want and leave?.. Or, are you in love with someone else? .. :'( ..